it was choir on tuesday, early dismissal so met up with nicholas and he made me wait again. i hate to wait and he is doing all that shit. i ate and spent alot, shadows and images of him kept popping up in my mind. i had to get him off. i have to. =[

audition at mediacorp the next day, saw wendy and another girl. it went quite well overall, had to read script from [星闪闪] the channel 8 show kinda stuff. she told me bout the pay and i was like, ' eh, we are also then the stupid shoe gave me trouble again, i fell down on my way back to the exit and had lotsa blisters. met up with javier at the toa payoh mrt station. he was like nice to treat me to movie and lunch... and dinner. haha! but i spent all my money on other stuff like clothes and taxi fare. even adrian dont know the cheaper way to get to that freaking place. who else help me? get there without a cab, i meant mediacorp.

we watched da vinci code. its better then expected and i understand the whole thing although i missed quite some part of the book. its actually quite straight forward if you know what they are talking about. like the holy grail, it can be quite confusing for people who dont know stuff like that. all 话中有话. -.- im quite lost for words. i meant what they said has a deeper meaning to it. something like that. pardon me alright. i haven't been very clear minded since labour day.

alright alright alright... its a good catch. go for it! =D

oh ya, i also went around town for shopping, bought blossomz's shorts for like $32.90, zara's stripped shirt for $39.90, some hairbands at the heeren for like $2.90 each. i have to stop spending.

off to a kopitiam at yishun with javier and met up with his friends after that. there's this guy who's so hilarious lorh! all rubbish talk and i cannot tahan him at all. i ate very little. the noodle was too spicy for me. i hate spiced up food. turns me off big time but i like laksa though. =D

choir practise again today, and will be for the rest of the tuesdays and thursdays in the holidays. its going on pretty well but the boys have to buck up, and i mean alot. too soft and unsure about what they are doing. jiayou! richard jiayou! hahahaha! richard is my idol okay.

nicholas wanted to meet but i have to wait again so i got angry and went off, was actually meeting jeffrey but he had to attend to something else so i continued o2jam. this nicholas bought me chocolates to apologise. im not that angry already.

i might stop blogging. depends on the amount of readers i have. it seems like i have very hardly a handful. so if you read, tag me, tell me and remind me that i still have you. its very very nice to know people read your stuff and know your thoughts alright.

oh my, i sound pathetic.


呼吸著一種孤獨的味道
心跳在你沉默以後慢慢的被淡忘掉
我笑了笑 反正你看不到
我要的幸福 遺落在你懷抱
當愛失了焦 那些最初的美好
早被你擱在一角
街上擁擠人潮 走著看著都是催眠符號
記憶停不了 穿過讀你的心跳
穿過想你的味道 我只想不被打擾
假裝多好 我只要 只想要 再擁有一秒
去相信你的擁抱 一直會讓我依靠
繼續等待 還心甘情願的不想逃

當愛失了焦 那些最初的美好
早被你擱在一角
街上擁擠人潮 走著看著都是催眠符號
記憶停不了 穿過讀你的心跳
穿過想你的味道 我只想不被打擾
假裝多好 我只要 只想要 再擁有一秒
去相信你的擁抱 一直會讓我依靠
繼續等待 心甘情願不想逃
假裝多好 依然是 依然是 曖昧的tone調
一個人無理取鬧 兩人世界的煎熬
我被自己困在自己設下的圈套

像是駝鳥 相信時間是唯一解藥
視而不見 傻到了無可救藥
其實早明瞭 你的愛已隨風飄
想要找 再也找不到
假裝多好 我只要 只想要 再擁有一秒去
相信你的擁抱 還心甘情願的不想逃
假裝多好 依然是 依然是 曖昧的tone調
一個人無理取鬧 兩人世界的煎熬
我被自己困在自己設下的圈套
假裝自己 已解開冰冷的手銬

;i am afraid